This month, we’ve had two eclipses.
The first one hit me directly, activating a messy T-square in my astrology chart. For those of you who don’t speak astrobabble, a T-Square is a hard angle that either pushes you off balance – or pushes you to achieve.
I’m a gal who prefers to take the latter route. (PS I’m also a yogi so my balance is on fleek. You should see me do half moon – it’s my signature pose and one we worked on all week in yoga class in honor of the moon stuff.)
Eclipses are perfect for making change. Big, epic changes. And when it activates a T-square? Woah. Let’s burn, baby, BURN.
I decided it was time for me to begin amping up that eclipse vibe by burning more calories. You see, I’ve been trying to take off this little middle-aged spare tire for a few months. I’ve lost ten pounds, which may not sound like a lot but for a teeny-framed short stack like me, it’s a lot.
But the last ten pounds were hanging on like rubber cement. Extra gloopy rubber cement – the kind that turns into sticky little rubber balls. Why so hard to get this stuff to stop sticking? Truth: because I was hanging on too – to a nightly glass of wine habit.
I love that glass of wine like I love my husband when he steps outside and his long locks flow in the wind, Fabio-style. Swoon! It’s my way to unwind and I convinced myself it was the only way to take the day down to chill-mode.
But it wasn’t doing any favors for that waistline. It had to go. Buh-bye wine club membership (that I never joined but wholly intended to)!
Instead of daily, wine o’clock has been relegated to the occasion. Let those calories burn like a brilliant, blazing bonfire (PS I sleep really well when I don’t have that nightly glass of wine – bonus!).
I’ve also burned a few more things. My digital shop has gotten pared down. I’ve thrown out some clutter in my world (still so, so much to go).
And then it was time to clear out some mental clutter. Namely, my BFF, fear.
We’ve all got a relationship with ole fear and although I consider myself a pretty ballsy gal, fear started to shine around a bit lately – right as I’m about to do something awesome (get a book published!).
Suddenly, stupid anxieties were creeping into my consciousness. Stuff like “who am I to write this?” and “what if” my two most-hated words, ever. It didn’t matter that the people I showed it to loved it. Instead, I started to read between the lines and wonder if they really meant it. I knew I was in trouble.
I needed a shero.
Tanya Geisler to the rescue. For those of you not-in-the-know, Tanya is an amazing coach who helps people that struggle with “The Imposter Complex” – that awful, icky mindset that affects many high-achievers like myself. Instead of running with our accomplishments, we never enjoy them…instead, we worry that people might find out that we have somehow hoodwinked them. That we don’t deserve our success. That we didn’t earn it. That somehow, it was just luck.
It doesn’t matter that I’ve been reading tarot for more than half my life. It doesn’t matter that I’ve read for thousands of people over the years. It didn’t matter that I’ve written a ton of ebooks, ecourses, a regular (and well-read) blog, or that I’ve taught tons of classes and been on main stages before.
That book deal freaked me the eff out. Which meant I wasn’t enjoying it as much as I should. I’ve been trying to work through that over the last few weeks but recently, that stupid inner critic in my brain became a real bully.
So on the lunar eclipse, I signed for Tanya’s new Step Into Your Starring Role Playbook course. It’s brilliant. Soulful. It’s reminding me that I can stand up + shine brightly like a super nova. Total eclipse o’ my heart stuff.
Because eclipses remind us: we don’t need to hide in the shadows just as much as we don’t need that nightly drink.
It’s time to step out of the dark night of the moon and be brave. Because that feels a lot better + brighter than lugging around a big suitcase of fear…or an extra spare tire.
Check out Tanya’s incredible TedX appearance below:
If you struggle with Imposter Syndrome, be sure to sign up for Tanya Geisler’s Step Into Your Starring Role Playbook course. It’s going to change your life.
More stuff for women who struggle to go for their dreams! My friends Susan Hyatt + Ellen Fondiler have created a super-hot course for you: Go Get It!
Looking to build a strong inner foundation? Annika Martins just opened the doors for Soul Centered. Get your soul on!
The Tarot Witch talks about how she learned witchcraft, tarot and how to work with spirits (and she gave me a sweet little shout out!).
Loving this post from Tarot legend Mary Greer: Beginner’s Tarot – Getting to know your deck.
From Seth Godin: Watching is not doing.
This post from Laura Simms is great reading: The top 3 traits of people who do meaningful work.
Hear Yourself Think takes on the right wing media brainwashing effect.
I’m talking about tarot and more with Ellen Fondiler. One of my favorite interviews, EVER.
Fresh ramen kits are a thing. But when you see my blog post tomorrow, you’ll want the real deal. Heh heh….
Benebell Wen writes some of the best tarot deck reviews out there. THIS amended post on Dame Darcy’s Mermaid Tarot is really interesting.
Have you read Benebell’s book, Holistic Tarot? It’s really meaty stuff. Like a tarot encyclopedia.
This is an interesting book: Hug Your Haters – How to Embrace Complaints and Keep Your Customers.
Lucky Peach has some of the best food writing out there.
Trouble letting go of someone? Margaret Ann Lembo has the solution: Cord Cutting – Releasing the Energetic Ties of the Past.
I just watched The Big Short last night – and it was really good. Christian Bale and Steve Carrell were terrific. (I’m always amazed at how Bale transforms himself in every film he does.)
New from Michael Hyatt and Daniel Harkavy: Living Forward – A Proven Plan to Stop Drifting and Get the Life You Want. (Love this kinda stuff.)
I am a sucker for lip palettes. This new collection of nude shades from L’Oreal is luxe, creamy, and looks great on the kisser!
What I’m Grateful For:
Time to cook
A good massage therapist
Books…so many books
Classes, both online and off
Soundtrack for 3/26/16: Work by Rihanna ft. Drake
© Theresa Reed | The Tarot Lady 2016
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