I remember puberty all too well. Not just those hormonal shifts and awkward bodily changes but also that feeling of alienation.
Too old for kid stuff like dolls and bubblegum, yet too young for those sneaky adult conversations whispered over beer in the kitchen. I wasn’t able to understand the high school girls and their obsessions with Seventeen magazine and pep rallies nor was I able to feel a kinship with girls my own age who fretted over Bonne Bell Lipsmackers and those stupid seventh grade boys with their pimples and Boston t-shirts. (Yes, the band Boston. UGH.)
I felt like an alien in my body and amongst my so-called tribe.
These days, I’m feeing that same vibe. It might be the menopause setting in or it might be something else. I dunno what it is but when I hang out with women my age, I’m find myself out of touch with the conversations about teenage kids and the angst that goes with that. My kids are long past those years so I have nothing to add to those conversations. I really want to talk about hip hop, politics, world events, mystical things, and business. Most of all business.
So I gravitate to younger women because they seem hip and ambitious. But alas, when the conversations inevitably turn to guys, babies, and sexuality, I’m acutely aware that I’m the old broad in this dynamic, far past that stage when men where a mystery and sexuality something yet to be discovered. Been around that block and then some.
I look to my elders but they are busy with health concerns or grandchildren. Which neither are part of my world at this time. Not sure if I really want either right now. Well, definitely not the health concerns. Grandkids are up for debate.
I am a woman without a tribe at the moment. A lone wolf that runs with many different packs but really not fitting in with any of them. I’m not sure if this is just a phase…or the way things are. Heck, maybe it’s always been this way but I was under some illusion that I was fitting in alright. Whatever the case may be, like puberty, all I can do is ride this transition out and stay curious as to what’s on the other side of it. If I’m lucky, my right people will be there, ready to dish about A$AP Rocky, the state of the world, and the latest word on business stuff.
Until then, I ride alone.
Check out this adorable avatar made for me by Diana R Chin of Red Lotus Designz!
Sign up for this stat: Behold – 22 Days of Ordinary Magic with Danielle Cohen. I am SO in.
Not to be morbid but I think this kit to help you plan your death is smart as can be.
New from the Cosmic Faery: The power of positive communication.
This is a good read: Astrology: science or superstition?
I SO want to go to Kaiju Big Battel! Who’s in?
An excellent post on Tarot reversals over at Little Red Tarot from guest write Valeria: 13 unconventional ways of reading tarot card reversals. <-There is a free ebook on reversals!
Some poetry for your Saturday: Tarot Readings Daily by Joy Ladin.
From Firerose Tarot: Why free readings are NOT for the spiritual good.
Oh, faux goddess of marketing want, thou are sneaky. Loving this thoughts from Delisa Carnegie.
Mary K Greer is so brilliant – check out this post: Your Tarot Journal & a Scrivener Template.
Good question: Chloe McCracken asks: what does an everyday devil look like?
Summer’s coming and it’s time to grill out! Here are some tips from some real BBQ pit masters!
Read it but don’t weep: The Tarot You Know talks about fives and loneliness.
I can relate to this: Hillary Clinton says wine helped her get through her election loss.
Compelling read from Amanda Knox: How prisons use cult tactics to brainwash inmates into religion.
Siobahn Rene is one of those writers who really delivers. Check out this goodness: How not to help anxiety: An anti-list. Give this woman a book deal already!
Sounds heavenly: Debra Smouse writes about her Sunday Sanctuary.
I like this one from Lisa Eddy of Angelorum: Tarot for Astrological Transits.
Great advice from Alexandra Franzen: How do you find clients and customers?
Do you know your unique Money DNA? Denise Duffield Thomas has a quiz that will help you move to the path of financial freedom. (I’m an accumulator!) <-Affiliate link.
Owl in the Oak Tarot is connecting tarot with music! Here’s her take on Justice.
Feeling witchy? Check out this from Skye Alexander: The Modern Witchcraft Spell Book: Your Complete Guide to Crafting and Casting Spells.
This was one of the most horrifying, dark, and intense films I’ve seen in a while: Hounds of Love. HIGHLY recommended but NOT for the squeamish.
Cannot wait to get my copy of Llewellyn’s 2018 Astrological Calendar.
Looks interesting: Mindshift: Break Through Obstacles to Learning and Discover Your Hidden Potential.
I bought these beautiful turquoise pasta bowls and am SO in love!
In June, I’m making two stops as part of The Tarot Coloring Book tour:
June 17-18th 2017: The Hermit’s Lamp in Toronto, Canada. Book signing and Celtic Cross Tutorial. Join me on the 17th for a book signing and then come again on the 18th for an in-depth workshop on how to rock the Celtic Cross (the Celtic Cross workshop is SOUL-ED OUT)!
What I’m Grateful For:
A good glass of wine on the weekend
Game of Thrones is almost here!
Interesting new clients
Apps that make my life easier
Soundtrack for 5/27/17:
Mask Off by Future
© Theresa Reed | The Tarot Lady 2017
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