Although I’ve been an adult for quite some time, I often find myself feeling much younger than my years. In fact, I can remember so many parts of my childhood (including being an infant in the crib!), that I almost feel as if I never truly grew up.
Sure, I do adult things like pay bills ’n stuff but even so, I can still feel those early childhood memories playing in the background of my consciousness.
I was a quiet, bookish child who preferred curling up on the couch with a novel rather than playing outside with the other kids. At school, I longed for the library instead of recess. It was my sanctuary.
Although I was quiet, I was also hot-tempered, prickly, especially when someone touched my stuff. Because we didn’t have a lot of money, possessions were important to me – hence, I guarded them with my life.
And I was cluttery. My room was usually a mess, filled with papers, notes, and, of course, books. My second-grade teacher was so outraged by my messiness that she would turn my desk over and spill out all the contents on the floor. Embarrassed, I would do my best to put everything back in order but it didn’t take long before the mess to return. Which meant: my desk would get dumped out in front of the class again.
Things haven’t changed all that much. I have my favorite spot for reading (that I often fight over with the cat). I’m less temperamental but still can be thrown in a white-hot rage when someone puts their hands on my stuff (especially my food – or my intellectual property). And yes, I am still messy. I’m clean but that clutter of books and papers seems to have followed me well into adulthood.
I would probably guess that most of us have fully formed habits and personalities early on. Circumstances, upbringing, or astrological influences may shape who we are and how we react. Sure, we can change certain things over time (ex: I’ve always been a night owl but retrained my brain to be an early riser), but the core of who we are is pretty sturdy stuff.
Whenever I engage in people-watching, I start to look at them as if they were still kids. I imagine what they were like when they were little. Were they nerdy or bullies? Did they like to play board games or were they into soccer? Would they have been the teacher’s pet, the artist, the jock, or the class clown? Look closely and you can still see a flicker of the past in every adult. Wanna really see it? Put an ice cream cone in their hands. You’ll quickly get an idea of what they were like as a kid. Ice cream is a truth serum!
We may be grown but really…we’re all just kids trying to make it in this world.
Our gardens are full of pretty things.
History always repeats: the year American unraveled.
From Jeanna Kadlec: how to be a good ally during Pride month.
Love tarot? Wanna talk about it? Check out this new forum: Cult of Tarot Forum.
Jack of Wands Tarot asks: what’s the point of deck collecting?
My favorite post of the week comes from Hilary Parry: When a reader refuses to read for you (aka don’t make a reader do what they don’t want to do).
The People’s Oracle is one of the best astrologers out there. Last week, her computer died, which means she’s not able to work. Let’s help out one of our own! Donate what you can right here.
If you’re in Atlanta, you’re in luck: In the cards: Modern Mystic offers tarot card readings, metaphysical tools.
Been there: My First Heartbreak Was Losing My Best Friend.
Ain’t like this for the rest of us: Alec Baldwin’s wife must be superhuman.
Know your history: The history of the Tulsa race massacre.
I’m a posture fanatic: The only stretch you need for better posture.
Always wished I learned macrame: Macrame: The Craft of Creative Knotting for Your Home.
Thinking about my home a lot this week: A Well-Crafted Home: Inspiration and 60 Projects for Personalizing Your Space.
WANT: Work Your Light Oracle Cards.
Confused about those tarot cards? Get clear with The Tarot Coloring Book.
I cannot wait for fall. It’s baking season and I’m gonna get this: Cook’s Illustrated Baking Book.
Here are my upcoming live classes:
Intuitive Tarot Reading at New Renaissance Books. Date: Tuesday, July 3rd from 6:30 PM – 8:30 PM. Location: Portland, Oregon.
Brushes and Cards: a fun day-long event with painting + tarot. You’ll be in good hands with me and intuitive painter, Chris Zydel. Date: Sunday, July 8th. Location: Oakland, California. SOUL-D out!
*NEW* Astrology for Total Beginners: learn the basics of natal chart interpretation. This two-hour workshop will get you up to speed on what all that astrology stuff is about! Join me at Boston Tea Room. Date: Wednesday, October 10th. Location: Ferndale, Michigan.
Pens and Cards: a day full of tarot exploration and writing with author Sarah Selecky and moi. Date: October 13th. Location: Skybarn, Prince Edward County, Ontario. Only TWO seats left!
Intuitive Tarot Reading at Boston Tea Room. Date: Sunday, October 14th. Location: Ferndale, Michigan.
What I’m Grateful For:
Conversations with smart people
Dreams that aren’t true
Getting a warning
New restaurants to explore
Soundtrack for 6/2/18:
Kids by MGMT
© Theresa Reed | The Tarot Lady 2018
images from stock photography and personal collection