I watched her twirl around in front of the mirror, the long veil grazing her fingertips. She was pleased with how she looked – and so was I.
Ah, life. Nothing is permanent, is it?
Although I know that to be true, a small part of me wants things to remain the same. That probably goes against my capricious Gemini nature, which adores variety but hear me out: sometimes change feels exhilarating, other times, not so much.
I’m not just talking about the changes we dislike but the other kind. The kind that makes you sentimental and longing for a chance to go back and redo a few things. I found myself thinking about this when shopping for wedding veils with my daughter. As she tried on a beautiful, lacy, vintage-y confection, I got a little wistful for days gone by.
Both of my children are adults with careers, houses, and in her case, about to make major life changes. So now here we are, on the verge of her starting a new chapter and I’m a gray-haired old bag thinking about the past, the time we have left, and what lies ahead.
While I’m happy that she’s well adjusted and there are promises of a grandchild to adore, I still wonder: is there anything I could have done differently? Was I a “good enough” mom? If not, how can I use the time we have left to be better? What’s next for us?
I don’t have all the answers about life or motherhood and I am not sure how every moment will unfold but I do know one thing: I’m not going to miss the present. I’m ready for the future and the changes that are surely on the way.
Nature is always changing.
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I love Jessica Lanyadoo: Everyone’s Obsessed With Astrology Right Now—And Jessica Lanyadoo Knows Why.
Wanna learn to read tarot intuitively? Check out this course from Hilary Parry Haggerty – The Tarot Intuitive Course.
From Refinery29: Mercury In Pisces Is Making Us Dreamy.
Meanwhile over at The Cut: Why Can’t I Commit to a Hobby?
Learn about the Imum Coeli on the latest Astrology Bytes.
Let’s get going: How To Take Action Before The 2020 Election.
Chani Nicholas is profiled over at Oprah Magazine: Astrologer Chani Nicholas Explains How to Read Your Birth Chart. (Psst…my Astrology For Real Life book got picked as a recommendation – scroll down to the bottom of the post!)
Talking Shop is back – and we’re chatting about the Saturn Pluto conjunction – and what it means for business in 2020.
On the top of my wish list: True Heart Intuitive Tarot, Guidebook, and Deck by Rachel True. CANNOT WAIT.
Kelly-Ann Maddox has a book coming out this fall: Rebel Witch.
SQUEE: Scorpio Sea Tarot from Maggie Stiefvater and Melissa Cynova drops this fall!
Check out the latest from Pam Grout: The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (and Therefore the World).
Defo worth a look: Beyond Survival: Strategies and Stories from the Transformative Justice Movement.
Coming soon from Shaheen Miro: Lunar Alchemy: Everyday Moon Magic to Transform Your Life.
More moon magic: The Moon Fix: Harness Lunar Power for Healing and Happiness.
Learning tarot doesn’t need to be dry. Have fun coloring in the cards with The Tarot Coloring Book!
When times are tough, we need more self-care. Tarot For Troubled Times blends tarot with magic, ritual, social justice, and lots of self-care for a modern healing manual.
Struggling to grasp astrology? Astrology for Real Life: A Workbook for Beginners (A No B.S. Guide for the Astro-Curious) is your new cosmic BFF!
April 24-26, 2020: Readers Studio. I’m a main stage presenter at the annual Readers Studio Tarot Conference in New York, the biggest tarot conference in the world. Join me and other world-class instructors for a weekend of tarot goodness!
May 10-16, 2020: The Tuscany Tarot Intensive. Where: Italy! A full week of tarot immersion. Great food, killer lessons, awesome people – gorgeous location! One seat left!
August 30, 2020: Brushes and Stars. Where: Oakland, California. A full-day of astrology and intuitive painting – and yummy food! Join me and Chris Zydel for a joyful, astrology-inspired intuitive painting experience.
What I’m Grateful For:
Watching my chidden succeed
A stack of unread books
Soundtrack for 1/25/20:
Lost in Yesterday by Tame Impala
© Theresa Reed | The Tarot Lady 2020
images from stock photography and personal collection